Is is that wrong ???

I'm scared it is all just a dream.

And when I wake up, there is no one around me.

I'm all alone again.

Sitting in the swing chair at my backyard.

Watching the sunset and feeling the solitary moment. 

Just like what I used to. 

I've never been this happy before.

This is reality, right?

Please believe what I choose just for this time. Geez, I'm tired of pleasing everyone while my heart is painful. Really tired. Words can't describe it. They have killed my dream to the point where it makes me feel desperately frustrated. I can't take this any longer. I guess It's time for me to do what my heart desires. I don't want to end up as a moronic woman who has a regretful life. Hey, I want to be my self. I want to be the real me. I just want to be.. FREE. Is it that wrong?

And you ust said, get lost.
Thank you.


Love.
Shanty Ruby